As May rapidly approaches, I find myself going through the same process I gop through every May and September. I start thinking about all of the boirthdays and holidays I have missed out on, the times I have missed being told I love you daddy from collin and felicia. I don’t even know if they know I exist. I think about htem all the time and when their Birthdays get closer it just affectes me alot. I feel like such a faliure to them…all the time. Perhaps they are better off without me in their lives.. I don’t know. I just wish they knew how much I love them and miss them.
Apr
9
Well as I sit here at my computer looking at the weeks and months ahead, I see alot of changes ahead of me. My job is moving it’s offices closer to my house YES!! No more 2 hour long bus rides to Salt Lake, now it’s about a 10 minute drive. I also realized today taht my Borthday is coming up…..yep the big 38. I can hardly beleive it, not to mention Collin’s birthday is coming up not long after mine. He is going to be 17…yeah 17 can you believe it? It’s insane, not only that I have a son that age but that I have not seen him since he was about 4. It hurts me so much to not where he is, what he is doing, what he looks like or what a strong young man I am sure he is growing up to be. I can only take comfort in knowing that I am sure he is being taken care wherever he is. I miss you Collin, I miss you alot, I just wish I knew where you were.
We re going this weekend to walk for MS, This will be the 3rd time that we have attended the MS walk, it is neat to see all thes children and adults walking for a good cause and to se those afflicted with MS fighting the diseas, to rise above it. The best part is getting to dress up in star wars costumes at the walk, the kids and adults just eat it up.
Speaking of Star Wars, a young boy we did a party for last year passed away this week, it is weighing heavily on my mind and I hope that his parents are doing ok. I cannot imagine the kind of feelings I would be going through if I had lost a child, they will be in our thoughts and prayers this weekend.
I guess that is all for now…….
CIAO!
Apr
9
About mid last year Alex (aka SpideyFett on The Dented Helmet) had a great opportunity to meet and speak with Jeremy Bulloch one on one at a Sci Fi Expo in Dallas Texas. In the that, and many conversations with Jeremy throughout the day, he was thrilled to find out that Jeremy was amazed at the work that was done on the Fett suits that were displayed by TDH at the Expo…he said “it reminded him of the suit he wore during filming”…Alex figured at the time he said that kind of thing to everyone in a Fett suit so I humbly accepted his praise of the work.
then Alex was stunned to find out that Jeremy REALLY wanted a wearable Fett Costume of his own, and had been wanting one for sometime…..and Alex was even more stunned that he didn’t already own a Fett suit of some kind. (Light goes off in his head)
Hence the JB Project was born!!
This was a 6 month project that was worked on by members of The Dented Helmet and Rebelscum.com. This was something that was a labor of love for all involved. The costume was presented to Jeremy 4-5-2008 at the Dallas Comic Con in Richardson TX.
Here are some pics from the event.
